Saturday, September 30, 2006
arghx. think i screwed up for english paper today. everything seemed to go wrong. bad luck or just really bad timing of the SINGLISH-itis ?
hais. i hope i do well. i love english too much to be hurt by it. hahah. yes, i'm in love with my subjects. i LOVE english, history, lit and ss. well. .. yeah. only when i'm not in a crummy mood though.
hais. i hope i do well. i love english too much to be hurt by it. hahah. yes, i'm in love with my subjects. i LOVE english, history, lit and ss. well. .. yeah. only when i'm not in a crummy mood though.
what we could have been, 9:24 am.
Monday, September 25, 2006
had a really weir-ed dream last night. i crashed out pretty early coz my legs were hurting. YES, it still hurts from thursday's pt session. i'm that pathetic. hahahaha. seriously, i'm not that sporty as i used to be. maybe i love my music, my writing and my aircon more now.
anyways, back to the dream. sorry to insult one of my dear friends but for once, i actually hate to see you. hahahhaa. yeah. you were so freaky in the dream. i think i rather keep my distance on this one. makes me ponder, would i dare to take such a risk? who knows right? so i'm gonna take the plunge and see where this leads me to.
really unlucky. i actually sat down and studied for two hours. then i got screamed at both my parents for not studying. i mean WTF, man. and they wonder why i dont bother studying while they're at work. i know they dont care. i mean, they dont show any concern about my welfare. only whether i will ruin their reputation or not. with family like this, i really dont understand why God gave me enemies. i mean, my family is practically enemies. hahaha. anyways, here's to hoping to a quiet, uneventful week.
anyways, back to the dream. sorry to insult one of my dear friends but for once, i actually hate to see you. hahahhaa. yeah. you were so freaky in the dream. i think i rather keep my distance on this one. makes me ponder, would i dare to take such a risk? who knows right? so i'm gonna take the plunge and see where this leads me to.
really unlucky. i actually sat down and studied for two hours. then i got screamed at both my parents for not studying. i mean WTF, man. and they wonder why i dont bother studying while they're at work. i know they dont care. i mean, they dont show any concern about my welfare. only whether i will ruin their reputation or not. with family like this, i really dont understand why God gave me enemies. i mean, my family is practically enemies. hahaha. anyways, here's to hoping to a quiet, uneventful week.
what we could have been, 1:07 pm.
Friday, September 22, 2006
hahahaaa. today was a pretty weird day. i was so ANNOYED this morning thanks to some idiot who had to make such a lot of noise while i was trying to sleep. anyways. by the time i showered, changed and packed my bag, i wasnt in the mood to go for swimming so i decided to go pe. that was a bad idea coz later i remembered that pe was actually physical torture under mr rizam. THANK GOODNESS for my backaches. hahahaha. for once, i dont envy my friends for having a back-free problem. i got to bow out of pe halfway and spent the rest of my time stoning.
following that was art. me and filz sat in front of christopher and jackie. quite entertaining coz they dont stop talking and they actually have a sense of humour and sarcasm unlike some brainless idiots i know. anyways, it was kinda hilarious coz christopher suddenly had a case of the sneezes. however, before he could cover his nose, he sneezed and a huge piece of gunk flew onto jackie's arm and shirt. ew. it's gross but it was so funny i couldnt stop laughing and actually it kinda cheered me up. thanks guys, despite it being disgusting. hahahaha.
stupid idiot. trying to piss me off. I'M NOT AFRAID. BRING IT ON!! LET EVERYONE SEE WAHT AN @$$ YOU ACTUALLY ARE. who do you think you're trying to kid? splitting our group up doesnt mean we'll be gone. i still have other tricks up my sleeve. i dont need to have safety in numbers to protect me. you helped me on that. you lose your potential allies and make unwanted enemies.
following that was art. me and filz sat in front of christopher and jackie. quite entertaining coz they dont stop talking and they actually have a sense of humour and sarcasm unlike some brainless idiots i know. anyways, it was kinda hilarious coz christopher suddenly had a case of the sneezes. however, before he could cover his nose, he sneezed and a huge piece of gunk flew onto jackie's arm and shirt. ew. it's gross but it was so funny i couldnt stop laughing and actually it kinda cheered me up. thanks guys, despite it being disgusting. hahahaha.
stupid idiot. trying to piss me off. I'M NOT AFRAID. BRING IT ON!! LET EVERYONE SEE WAHT AN @$$ YOU ACTUALLY ARE. who do you think you're trying to kid? splitting our group up doesnt mean we'll be gone. i still have other tricks up my sleeve. i dont need to have safety in numbers to protect me. you helped me on that. you lose your potential allies and make unwanted enemies.
what we could have been, 1:54 pm.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
long, lush and dark lashes.
wide, almond-shaped eyes,
the windows to the soul.
a nose, cute like a button.
delicate cheek bones.
small, moon-shaped dimples.
soft, inviting, kiss-able pink lips.
shy, warm smile.
small, pearly teeth.
pointy, elfin-like ears,
small and delicate.
long and flowing raven tresses.
silky and devastatingly long lashes.
eyebrows, plucked to perfection.
eyelids caked with make-up.
classically straight nose.
sharp, angular cheek bones.
bright, white, extremely straight teeth.
hair - a wild mess of bouncy curls.
the ears, three shiny studs each.
plump, sultry lips.
a coy, lip-sticked smile.
light coloured eyes,
with hints of mischief.
two different people.
one of innocence,
pure, a vision in white.
the other of lust,
seductive and tempting.
you never noticed the innocent one.
blinded by lust and greed.
you stand around her,
drinking in the wild beauty,
which leaves you gasping for more.
others, on the other hand,
appreciate the untouched beauty.
wanting to be the first,
playing on the naiivete of innocence.
yearning to leave their mark.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
okay, i found this weird. the first half really was part of some other poem i wrote but i stuck it here anyway. hahahaha. it's totally weird but who cares luh ?
anyways, had a pretty uneventful day in school, yeah. totally dull coz i decided to break ties with SOME IDIOT. uh~huh. stupid. stupid. stupid. i am really too trusting for my taste. i need to be a little less trusting and more suspicious of people at times.
finally healed the rift between me and an ex-pal. i cant really say we're buddies but as far as friends go. it's about there huh ? so ... let's hope it wont get worst.
grrrrrr. there's this sense of restlessness i've been harboring for ages. i'm getting kinda nervous coz i know that something not so good will be the outcome. bleahs.
exams are coming and i have no motivation to study. i really need to do something about that. hais. i wish i could just give up science. me and science agree on one thing - I WILL FAIL. -sighs- i'm not meant to do science, i'm a humans student. i shouldnt care about physics or chem or bio !!!
wide, almond-shaped eyes,
the windows to the soul.
a nose, cute like a button.
delicate cheek bones.
small, moon-shaped dimples.
soft, inviting, kiss-able pink lips.
shy, warm smile.
small, pearly teeth.
pointy, elfin-like ears,
small and delicate.
long and flowing raven tresses.
silky and devastatingly long lashes.
eyebrows, plucked to perfection.
eyelids caked with make-up.
classically straight nose.
sharp, angular cheek bones.
bright, white, extremely straight teeth.
hair - a wild mess of bouncy curls.
the ears, three shiny studs each.
plump, sultry lips.
a coy, lip-sticked smile.
light coloured eyes,
with hints of mischief.
two different people.
one of innocence,
pure, a vision in white.
the other of lust,
seductive and tempting.
you never noticed the innocent one.
blinded by lust and greed.
you stand around her,
drinking in the wild beauty,
which leaves you gasping for more.
others, on the other hand,
appreciate the untouched beauty.
wanting to be the first,
playing on the naiivete of innocence.
yearning to leave their mark.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=
okay, i found this weird. the first half really was part of some other poem i wrote but i stuck it here anyway. hahahaha. it's totally weird but who cares luh ?
anyways, had a pretty uneventful day in school, yeah. totally dull coz i decided to break ties with SOME IDIOT. uh~huh. stupid. stupid. stupid. i am really too trusting for my taste. i need to be a little less trusting and more suspicious of people at times.
finally healed the rift between me and an ex-pal. i cant really say we're buddies but as far as friends go. it's about there huh ? so ... let's hope it wont get worst.
grrrrrr. there's this sense of restlessness i've been harboring for ages. i'm getting kinda nervous coz i know that something not so good will be the outcome. bleahs.
exams are coming and i have no motivation to study. i really need to do something about that. hais. i wish i could just give up science. me and science agree on one thing - I WILL FAIL. -sighs- i'm not meant to do science, i'm a humans student. i shouldnt care about physics or chem or bio !!!
what we could have been, 11:47 am.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
bleahs. today's monday. -rolls eyes-
second week of school though.
i havent thought of blogging coz i'm just so lazy.
ahahahahaa.
anyways, recieved a letter from andria mid-week i guess.
then i spent the whole day in school composing a letter.
ahahahaha. good practice for letter-writing, miss!!
lols, yeah right. like my teacher would believe me.
N-nee-Ways,
it's been totally quiet.
i mean, i think i oversmsed again.
within two weeks of the month.
ahahahahahaha.
my latest bill is close to a hundred bucks.
i'm screwed all right.
second week of school though.
i havent thought of blogging coz i'm just so lazy.
ahahahahaa.
anyways, recieved a letter from andria mid-week i guess.
then i spent the whole day in school composing a letter.
ahahahaha. good practice for letter-writing, miss!!
lols, yeah right. like my teacher would believe me.
N-nee-Ways,
it's been totally quiet.
i mean, i think i oversmsed again.
within two weeks of the month.
ahahahahahaha.
my latest bill is close to a hundred bucks.
i'm screwed all right.
what we could have been, 12:45 pm.
Monday, September 11, 2006
today was so awesome. i mean, i was pretty happy since i had a new shirt to wear to church. hahaha. i bought it last week, it was on sale. XD
had to be super careful with the present. laater at church, i made debs decorate the inside of the card coz i didnt know what to write inside. i kinda felt embarrassed later when i wrote shaunie coz i'm so used to calling another one of my friends, shaunie. heheh. sorry shaun. ehee.
i tried to catch those from my class so that they could sign before hand so i didnt have to do so sneakily, trying to get the whole class to sign which in the end i couldnt. hehehe.
shaunie's present was a piggy keychain, those big bags of mixed m&m chocies and that card which had the spiky haired kid in front. ahahaha.
later, spent the whole day at deb's house. was lazing in the room before we went to see the Raina's unfinished house. it looks big but actually it felt kind small when you went inside. kinda disappointing really. =x
they came over to debs house where we had dinner, watch hoodwinked and pretty much play card games. we stayed until 10 i think. super cool since normally we had to go back early coz there was school the next day.
had to be super careful with the present. laater at church, i made debs decorate the inside of the card coz i didnt know what to write inside. i kinda felt embarrassed later when i wrote shaunie coz i'm so used to calling another one of my friends, shaunie. heheh. sorry shaun. ehee.
i tried to catch those from my class so that they could sign before hand so i didnt have to do so sneakily, trying to get the whole class to sign which in the end i couldnt. hehehe.
shaunie's present was a piggy keychain, those big bags of mixed m&m chocies and that card which had the spiky haired kid in front. ahahaha.
later, spent the whole day at deb's house. was lazing in the room before we went to see the Raina's unfinished house. it looks big but actually it felt kind small when you went inside. kinda disappointing really. =x
they came over to debs house where we had dinner, watch hoodwinked and pretty much play card games. we stayed until 10 i think. super cool since normally we had to go back early coz there was school the next day.
what we could have been, 2:15 pm.
Friday, September 08, 2006
okae. today went out with mevalia coz i wanted to buy a new school bag. wheeeeees. yups. i know. i kinda change bags like people change underwear, yea? well, not literally, figuratively(?). i dislike using the same bag over and over again so i kinda change every term or so i guess. most bags last about half to three-quarters of a school years before i change. if it's small, i use it for church or just going out. if it's big, it 'retires' to the big storeroom at the back of the house. hahahaha. my sis wont use my bags and i wont reuse hers either.
anyways, met with yehfri, jian tao and jimmy. they said i was late so i rushed as i fast as i could. i was walking towards the citylink part, i saw someone who looked rather familiar but i ignored coz i had three impatient friends waiting at the moment. ahhahaha.
we called and smsed mevalia but she didnt reply. the only time she FINALLY replied was when jimmy called her. -,-''' of course, we had to tease them by catcalling and whistling. ahhahaha. typical hormonal reaction? i think so.
anyways, went to marina square where we rushed to buy tickets for the host. yehfri's so weird. if he knew he was gonna be disgusted by the movie, then why did he buy nachos. of course, he told me that fact just as i was about to eat one of his nachos which was generously dipped in cheese. it took much willpower not to spit it out. thanks a lot, yehfri.
as i said before. the Host was GROSS. super yucky. i was so disgusted that i kinda lost my appetite for my popcorn too. hahhaa.
anyways, after that we had lunch when mrs zou called me. =X totally weird. she asked for my lit results and we were all so 'diao' coz we didnt know why would she call me in the first place.
bought my bag at bugis in the end. also bought matching keychains with mevalia. it was a totally funky piece. i really really love it soooo much. i love to hear the clinking of the 'glass' pieces. heehee.
anyways, met with yehfri, jian tao and jimmy. they said i was late so i rushed as i fast as i could. i was walking towards the citylink part, i saw someone who looked rather familiar but i ignored coz i had three impatient friends waiting at the moment. ahhahaha.
we called and smsed mevalia but she didnt reply. the only time she FINALLY replied was when jimmy called her. -,-''' of course, we had to tease them by catcalling and whistling. ahhahaha. typical hormonal reaction? i think so.
anyways, went to marina square where we rushed to buy tickets for the host. yehfri's so weird. if he knew he was gonna be disgusted by the movie, then why did he buy nachos. of course, he told me that fact just as i was about to eat one of his nachos which was generously dipped in cheese. it took much willpower not to spit it out. thanks a lot, yehfri.
as i said before. the Host was GROSS. super yucky. i was so disgusted that i kinda lost my appetite for my popcorn too. hahhaa.
anyways, after that we had lunch when mrs zou called me. =X totally weird. she asked for my lit results and we were all so 'diao' coz we didnt know why would she call me in the first place.
bought my bag at bugis in the end. also bought matching keychains with mevalia. it was a totally funky piece. i really really love it soooo much. i love to hear the clinking of the 'glass' pieces. heehee.
what we could have been, 9:52 am.
Monday, September 04, 2006
a child waits in anticipation
for her daddy, her hero,
to tuck her in and kiss her good night.
tick tock, tick tock.
it's getting late,
it's way past bedtime,
so get into bed.
feeling neglected and forlorn,
the child pads back into her room,
throws on her blanket
and sniffs into her teddy bear.
where is daddy?
the night passes and morning comes.
the help finds a tear-soaked pillow
and a child sucking her thumb,
her cheeks stained with tear tracks.
the same little girl sits at the swings,
gazing longingly at the other mommies and kids.
where is mommy?
playing with the nanny isn't the same.
nobody to play tag with.
head held high, eyes unusually bright,
the girl stalks off,
to sit on her lonesome.
what happened to 'mommy and me' time?
how about the hugs and kisses
and 'i love you's?
evening falls and the little girl's home.
it's empty and she's all alone.
a lonely sigh escapes her lips.
the phone rings
but she doesnt have to answer.
she knows what it means.
'don't wait up. daddy and I
will be back late. tata, honey,
don't stay up and wait'.
the little girl wanders off
and just before she sleeps,
she hangs a poster on the door.
a picture of a girl, taken
from an album,
and five words printed underneath,
'free to a good home'.
rejected and alone,
she slopes back to bed,
a single tear drop glistening
as it travels down her cheek.
a cry that will never be heard.
for her daddy, her hero,
to tuck her in and kiss her good night.
tick tock, tick tock.
it's getting late,
it's way past bedtime,
so get into bed.
feeling neglected and forlorn,
the child pads back into her room,
throws on her blanket
and sniffs into her teddy bear.
where is daddy?
the night passes and morning comes.
the help finds a tear-soaked pillow
and a child sucking her thumb,
her cheeks stained with tear tracks.
the same little girl sits at the swings,
gazing longingly at the other mommies and kids.
where is mommy?
playing with the nanny isn't the same.
nobody to play tag with.
head held high, eyes unusually bright,
the girl stalks off,
to sit on her lonesome.
what happened to 'mommy and me' time?
how about the hugs and kisses
and 'i love you's?
evening falls and the little girl's home.
it's empty and she's all alone.
a lonely sigh escapes her lips.
the phone rings
but she doesnt have to answer.
she knows what it means.
'don't wait up. daddy and I
will be back late. tata, honey,
don't stay up and wait'.
the little girl wanders off
and just before she sleeps,
she hangs a poster on the door.
a picture of a girl, taken
from an album,
and five words printed underneath,
'free to a good home'.
rejected and alone,
she slopes back to bed,
a single tear drop glistening
as it travels down her cheek.
a cry that will never be heard.
what we could have been, 12:25 pm.
our eyes meet for the first time.
you take the lead,
i follow, without hesitation.
two perfect strangers,
yet it's like we've known each other.
we make small talk, jokes even.
a smile graces your lips,
eyes sparkling,
the awkwardness gone.
the next time we meet,
i take the chance
to get you know better
and vice versa.
when we part, we know we'll be friends forever.
on the third time,
the anticipation surrounds us.
the attraction is there,
nervously, i meet your eyes
only to be greeted with the taste of your kiss.
it was special,
it was our first,
we were meant to last.
that was a week ago,
so where are you now?
i'm waiting here.
i'm standing all alone,
believing in a fairy tale you made.
i can choose to move on,
but i cant and wont.
i'm still waiting.
i dont want to wake up,
if this is only a dream.
you take the lead,
i follow, without hesitation.
two perfect strangers,
yet it's like we've known each other.
we make small talk, jokes even.
a smile graces your lips,
eyes sparkling,
the awkwardness gone.
the next time we meet,
i take the chance
to get you know better
and vice versa.
when we part, we know we'll be friends forever.
on the third time,
the anticipation surrounds us.
the attraction is there,
nervously, i meet your eyes
only to be greeted with the taste of your kiss.
it was special,
it was our first,
we were meant to last.
that was a week ago,
so where are you now?
i'm waiting here.
i'm standing all alone,
believing in a fairy tale you made.
i can choose to move on,
but i cant and wont.
i'm still waiting.
i dont want to wake up,
if this is only a dream.
what we could have been, 12:10 pm.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
what is it with you?
stop trying to make me perfect
coz i'm not.
you want me to voice my opinions
but when i do,
i'm continously ignored.
so i learn to keep silent.
my body is numb as
i take in snide remarks,
horrid comments and anger thrown at me.
my pillow becomes my friend,
the one i run to and cry
every night.
the cover's soaked,
my eyes are red.
what happened to dearest mommy and daddy?
the ones who kissed me good night.
these strangers who replaced them
are horrid and mean.
did i do something wrong?
come back, please.
stop trying to make me perfect
coz i'm not.
you want me to voice my opinions
but when i do,
i'm continously ignored.
so i learn to keep silent.
my body is numb as
i take in snide remarks,
horrid comments and anger thrown at me.
my pillow becomes my friend,
the one i run to and cry
every night.
the cover's soaked,
my eyes are red.
what happened to dearest mommy and daddy?
the ones who kissed me good night.
these strangers who replaced them
are horrid and mean.
did i do something wrong?
come back, please.
what we could have been, 9:45 pm.
today's the 1st september. teachers' day AND my mom's birthday. kinda quiet day. went out and ended up buying myself a nice new shirt. -grins- arent you so glad we went out to buy clothes, jt ?
anyways, feeling super broke coz i spent a wadful of cash on my mom's present. some expensive, branded wallet/purse thingy. hais. a lot of money but then again, it's for my mom so it's definitely perfect.
later that night we went to eat at marmalade pantry. quite okay i guess. didnt strike me that it would be that nice but my mom thinks it is. hmmmmmmm. whatever, it's her dinner. pretty uneventful after that.
i was so pleased when i checked my email that night. i've been waiting for someone's email for a long long time and finally they replied. i was practically glowing with happiness. ahahahahaa. i was drunk and high that they replied and immediatly replied, although i doubt they'll reply any soon.
anyways, feeling super broke coz i spent a wadful of cash on my mom's present. some expensive, branded wallet/purse thingy. hais. a lot of money but then again, it's for my mom so it's definitely perfect.
later that night we went to eat at marmalade pantry. quite okay i guess. didnt strike me that it would be that nice but my mom thinks it is. hmmmmmmm. whatever, it's her dinner. pretty uneventful after that.
i was so pleased when i checked my email that night. i've been waiting for someone's email for a long long time and finally they replied. i was practically glowing with happiness. ahahahahaa. i was drunk and high that they replied and immediatly replied, although i doubt they'll reply any soon.
what we could have been, 12:43 pm.
Friday, September 01, 2006
today was the teacher's day celebration, and the day i came back after my mc. yesterday i went to the doctor coz my arm hurt really bad. okay, the short version of what happened. when i went out with the jap students, while i was getting off the bus, the door slammed on my left side of my body. to be honest, i think it just killed the pain coz my whole arm went numb. yeah~ha.
anyways, it started hurting everytime i stretched or even moved my arm so we went to a doctor who referred us to get an x-ray which we did. i was totally nervous then coz i didnt want to get a fracture or anything. thankfully, at the most, it was just probably nerve damage. =phew= thank you lord for protecting me.
so i was walking around with some funky black elbow guard thing. it looked like i had tennis elbow or something, which reminds me i wanna take up tennis again -i miss it so much. and we still had to serve tea and give gifts to the teachers. thank heavens the teacher i was suppose to give didnt come. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. anyways, watched the last 5 - 10 minutes of the teachers' day performance. hahaha. we were all joking at the back of the hall coz we didnt really know what was happening exactly.
stayed back coz i had a bio test. derek kept disturbing me while i was cramming last minute beforehand. i felt like hitting him. haaha. dumb disciple. NEVER DISTURB THE MASTER. hahahaha.
while i was taking the test, i recieved a plateful of chocolate fondue with some fruits. woots. i love chocolate fondue. it's so yummy. havent eaten it in ages. thanks!! aaaaah, the benefit of taking the test inside the staffroom.
after that, i waited with damien and kean thong as we watched the uppersec floorball competition. at first it was kinda boring but later as it progressively got rougher, it was more interesting. sad to admit, that violence was the key to make it more fascinating.
after that, went with mevalia to balestier to watch a movie, the devil wears prada. verrrrry nice. i really liked it a lot. although we missed a bit of the beginning, i felt that the story didnt follow the book, kinda sad really coz i read the book first and i was hoping it would be the same. MIRANDA PRIESTLY IS MY IDOL. hahha. she rocks. to be that influential and cunning, well, it's a dog-eat-dog world. so what she did was typically life.
anyways, it started hurting everytime i stretched or even moved my arm so we went to a doctor who referred us to get an x-ray which we did. i was totally nervous then coz i didnt want to get a fracture or anything. thankfully, at the most, it was just probably nerve damage. =phew= thank you lord for protecting me.
so i was walking around with some funky black elbow guard thing. it looked like i had tennis elbow or something, which reminds me i wanna take up tennis again -i miss it so much. and we still had to serve tea and give gifts to the teachers. thank heavens the teacher i was suppose to give didnt come. wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. anyways, watched the last 5 - 10 minutes of the teachers' day performance. hahaha. we were all joking at the back of the hall coz we didnt really know what was happening exactly.
stayed back coz i had a bio test. derek kept disturbing me while i was cramming last minute beforehand. i felt like hitting him. haaha. dumb disciple. NEVER DISTURB THE MASTER. hahahaha.
while i was taking the test, i recieved a plateful of chocolate fondue with some fruits. woots. i love chocolate fondue. it's so yummy. havent eaten it in ages. thanks!! aaaaah, the benefit of taking the test inside the staffroom.
after that, i waited with damien and kean thong as we watched the uppersec floorball competition. at first it was kinda boring but later as it progressively got rougher, it was more interesting. sad to admit, that violence was the key to make it more fascinating.
after that, went with mevalia to balestier to watch a movie, the devil wears prada. verrrrry nice. i really liked it a lot. although we missed a bit of the beginning, i felt that the story didnt follow the book, kinda sad really coz i read the book first and i was hoping it would be the same. MIRANDA PRIESTLY IS MY IDOL. hahha. she rocks. to be that influential and cunning, well, it's a dog-eat-dog world. so what she did was typically life.
what we could have been, 10:34 am.
